The windshield wiper on the passenger side of my car is broken. We have taken it in to have it fixed three times and it works a while then breaks again. I hate it because in heavy storms when Phil is driving, I can’t help him and I know that he needs my help. I hate that feeling of being out of control.
Today on facebook Corey, one of the teens in our church, wrote that he fishtailed around a corner while driving his brother’s truck and he found it to be exciting. I wish that I found such adventures exciting, but I am 50(+) and being out of control is not exciting anymore. I think Corey is a little like God, a lover of adventure, and I am the passenger without a windshield wiper trying to trust in Him to maneuver me safely.
It’s hard to trust in God when my life is fishtailing around corners and my stomach is in my throat. I wish there were three simple rules to follow to deal with such situations. I wish God would take a driving test and drive safely like me, sometimes I wonder if He has read the rules. I wish that faith was easy.
Sometimes when I look at the difficulties that God has asked me to walk through I want to say—“wait, you have the wrong girl—I’m not the strong and adventurous type”, but maybe God sees something I don’t see in me and maybe He sees something in you. Maybe He sees something special in our souls that He knows He can refine and beautify in a way that will bring glory to Him that only our unique crisis can do.
Isaiah 25:4 & 5
You have been a refuge for the poor, a refuge for the needy in his distress, a shelter from the storm and a shade from the heat. For the breath of the ruthless is like a storm driving against a wall and like the heat of the desert. You silence the uproar of foreigners; as heat is reduced by the shadow of a cloud, so the song of the ruthless is stilled.
I hope that you find refuge and faith in your storms when visibility of what God is doing is very limited. I pray you find shade in distress when you are melting from the heat of your difficult situations and I pray God receives glory in all of our faith-challenging, “real life” hurdles.
Very much what I needed to read today. Thank you for the encouragement, friend.
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